... thinking again.

You know, I tend to think myself into corners a lot. I find that it happens when you question things, or think more deeply into things than it's needed, but I can't help it, what would life be without contemplation? Whether it's "this pasta has more starch in it than is needed, and so it's grossly chewy", or something deeper such as "why do I need a savior" <-- trust me, if you want to be lead in horrible circles by your own reasoning, that's a good one to go for. I was asked that early LAST semester and have yet to come up with a satisfactory answer. I know there is one though, there has to be.

I'm thinking about meditation. I used to enjoy it, and did it occasionally last year, and I found that it really was a great thing. You calm yourself down, can de-stress, prepare yourself for prayer, anything really. It was a great start and finish to my day. Yet now when I think about it, because meditation (in the way that I do it, sitting there, picturing something or thinking about a specific thing) and just emptying everything else out, is that not the same as the meditation used in religions like buddhism? I'm worried about doing something, or integrating something that I shouldn't without realising it. But then I wonder if it might be alright to do, if I'm thinking about a faith based topic, or doing it in a way to analyze myself and see what things I need to work on to deepen my faith?

Bah, I hate this side of myself. Actually, I quite adore it, and strongly hope that I can bring it out more, but again, it's strange. Only weirdo-guys wearing thick rimmed glasses, tight flood pants and pashminas do things like this (just kidding). I'm not sure. These are just some thoughts floating through my head at the moment. I really do love contemplation though, and questioning, thinking... they all flow so well into meditation, maybe that's why I enjoy it?

However, this isn't updating you all at all... then again, I don't have much of an update at the moment, haha. I'm somewhat behind on my reading, even though I do it daily, and so I need to catch up on that by amping it up a tad. I need to begin my papers so as not to be swamped to the point of suffocation when they begin piling up for the tougher months, I want to work on my prayer/scripture life... and um... well, that's about all I've had time to do lately! Sorry I'm such a bore folks, but that's TESOL life! I promise to start updating more regularily though, maybe even several times a week, we'll see how the workload evens out!