I feel like a mute...

I really do. And I feel so bad because of it. Honestly, my life is beginning to dwindle. I know it's to be expected, technically speaking I'm potentially starting a career, and because we're short staffed, my overtime is just through the roof. But it's still weird. I'm used to having the time to do things like talk about boys, or just sit down for a bit and write. But instead, my time off is generally spent figuring out bill payments, or planning for the apartment, or trying to find a few extra hours of sleep. Adult life sucks, haha, but I love it so much. As hard as it is to pull this many hours and have this much responisibility, at the end of the day, it feels great. It's sort of like the last bits of being a teenager are stripped away. I am woman, hear me groan. Lol.

I don't really know what to write about. Work is in a bit of a routine right now, except that the residents (some of them anyway) will be leaving for home soon. I'll be working Christmas and Boxing day for sure, and on the day of the big Christmas party, so that'll be eventful and fun. I like that I'll get to spend Christmas with them though, I'm coming to really love everyone in this house, and it'll sort of feel like I'm spending the special day with people close to me. Which I appreciate, otherwise I'd have been awfully lonely!

I think the next couple of weeks will be interesting. For one thing I'm going to be poor as dirt, lol. Between paying the rent for the house I'm in now, paying my damage deposit and the first month's rent for the apartment, AND paying for the utilities... I probably wont even be able to afford to put minutes on my phone! It's really stressing me out, but at the same time, I'm thinking it will all work out. If all else fails, I'll sub during the day on the times I work night shifts. I'll be tired, but able to afford the things I need. Right?

I've been sort of sick lately. It's weird, I don't have any symptoms of the flu or a cold or ANYTHING. But I can't hold solid food down. I haven't gotten to eat in about 5 days, anything I do I end up throwing up within a couple of hours. I'm thinking it's from stress, or maybe something to do with the gall bladder... but really, if it were the gall bladder, I'd be in a lot of pain, haha. So I'm going with stress. Either way, it should go away soon, I'm hoping. I'm tired of water and apple sauce, lol.

Not going to lie though, I'm all smiles on the outside... but right now is a stressful and tiring time. I can't wait for it to all just be done.