Yup, ramble, not rant. Definitely not rant! So... I noticed that on here, as I'm typing this out, the font looks like Times New Roman, so I always change it to veranda, but then yesterday, I forgot to change it to veranda, and it looked normal and not TNR like on the post... does it look like TNR for you or just normal? Hmmm...
So, I'm still so confused about what to do for next year. I must admit, I've hit a small period of no motivation, it sort of sucks. I can't seem to spit out anything good for my papers, I have one due tomorrow that I've written twice, but deleted all of it both times because it isn't up to my standards. Ugh. I hate having standards, a) it means I wont ever be satisfied with the love of my life (just kidding, I threw that one in for fun), and b) it means that times like this threaten my academic life. Boo on Nana teaching me to have standards!
I just had to move outside of my room because my internet went funky, I don't know what's up with it these days! But yeah, so school wise I'm currently like that little duckling in the picture you always see, you know the one I'm talking about, the cute little duckling that can't get up the sidewalk curb like all of it's little duckling friends. Yup, that's the one. And yes, I'm tired. I'm listening to Indescribable, and although I originally really didn't like the song, I think it's become one of my favorites, mainly because over time I actually listened to the lyrics, and wowsa, they're amazing!
Anyhow, back to my lack of life goals, haha: So, I think I've decided that I'll be doing the second semester of Briercrest classes, that way I can take a few of the courses here that I REALLY want to take, and I can audit the second half (aka the fluent half) of the German course, and then I'll have it really down-pact, and THEN I can spend the year in Germany! How cool would that be? It would also allow me to have ample time to save up a lot of money (because Bible school is a money-blackhole) and stuff too, possibly buy a vehicle! I really need a vehicle...
Also, now that I'm turning 20, my parents are beginning to do the ever so loving "get life plans" thing, where I'm supposed to begin thinking about where I'll live next year (no worries though, I've got that one figured out, so hmph), where I'll be working, what I'll be doing, what I'll be driving, who I'll be engaged to (my dowry is getting old and rickety... soon the dear little goat will be giving powdered-milk!), etc. Oh life. Anyhow... although they haven't said it straight out, the pressure is there all the same. Maybe it's just my subconcious telling me to get a life? I dunno. I know I need to accept the "adult" responsibilities of life and such, but still, I don't want to be some cranky old adult. I officially can't claim that 19 is still a teen because it ends with the word teen (it's been my excuse so far) because twenty doesn't have it! It doesn't even have an extra 'e' so I could say that the word teen is hidden in it! *sigh*
Anyhow... other than that life is good, well, except for the lack of motivation and incoming slaughterhouse of exam periods and stuff. Not to mention the thought of losing my freshman TWENTY over the summer, gah... I put on twenty pounds, I weigh 130! ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY POUNDS! But no worries, I'm not obsessing ;).
Love ya'll!
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your conscience here to talk to you, so listen up:
a)you do not need to find a life, you live enough for you, yourself and ... well ... okey so its doens't work like me myself and I but you get the point.
b) despite that, you do need to find PLANS (different than a life) for next year, but don't worry. we were talking about it in Christian Fellowship last night, everything will fall in place just when it seems that time has reached its expiry date.
c) you do not need a gas guzzling vehicle ... I have reasons but a list within a list seems excessive
d) do NOT complain abotu your freshman 20 ... try dealing with a freshman 25 by decmeber and then being scared to step on a scale since then ... yep ... fat camp here I come !
But you don't understand... I DO need a vehicle, and I will be getting one, lol. You may be able to hitchike, but we get kicked out of school darling ;). And besides it'll be convenient for getting home and cost less for me to go into town! ALSO I'll be travelling between Thompson and Snowlake a lot, so it will be necessary for that too. So ha!
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